Well if I come across a little bit distant
It's just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
You understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worthy
So let me say

So long, self
Well, it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long, self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long, self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me, farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long, self

Stop right there because I know what you're thinking
But no we can't be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
Can't you see

So long, self
Well, it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long, self
There's just no room for two, so you are gonna have to move
So long, self
Don't take this wrong, but you're wrong for me, farewell
Oh well, good-bye, don't cry
So long

Don't feel so bad (don't feel so bad)
There'll be better days (there'll be better days)
Don't go away mad (but by all means)
Just go away,go away (Mercyme)

Hey finally I have time to update lol yay!!! Hmmm let me think what have I been up to... Well work has been busy we've lost two workers over the last month or so which means I've been having to do a lot more then normal cause I'm the only worker left hehe but its not so bad I work for really great people they look after me pretty well. Umm they've been giving me free dressage lessons too so thats really awesome. As for my two gremlins they're still with me, Henry's been having some time off after another failed attempt to get around a course at hawkesbury show. So now i have to decide whether to keep persuing with him or what i want to do with him but yea... Coffee is going super lol he's such a star I had my little second cousin come up with my Aunty and his friend a few weeks back and they had their first ever pony ride on Coffee and he was so good lol I love him so much hehe and I've got him entered in Sydney show jump clubs winter champs this weekend coming up which will be heaps of fun. And Rob my wonderful boy is fantastic! hehe I got to ride him for his first 3/4 gallop on my birthday lol which was really awesome and he's improving every week and he's only a few months off racing yay!!! hehe he's such a smarty pants he keeps fighting with henry cause they live next to each other (personally I think henry is jealous cause i've been riding rob more then him lol, he doesn't like it when someone else is getting more attention them him lol its really funny)

But yea apert from that still working 6 days a week the racehorses are going well one of them has had 2 wins in the last month or two which is really good. so I been to a few race meetings as well. And the other fella is gona be racing in the next few months too. An dwe've got two new fillies betty and bella hehe their so cute! their to be broken in and that will probably start in the next couple of weeks.

Went shopping with Kate today it was fun stuff hehe, umm yea had a few movie nights with Kate and Annika came along and joined us for our last one, umm saw Lauren and Matt a few weeks ago and caught up with them (they've been together for bout 6 months now awww! cute!) hehe yea it was awesome to catch up with them. umm Haven't really seen anyone else as of yet had a brief convo with Loopy Laura the other night that was pretty funny lol as for the others i do still love you and i will catch up with you soon! And i must say thanks to Kate for the big happy birthday msg on your xanga lol it was tops and thanks guys for all your msgs i returned as many as i could. yea i had a great day got to ride rob in the morning went to work had a pretty easy day got a big bonus from my boss (she really does spoil me a bit too much sometimes lol) and she let me have an early mark which was awesome cause that meant that i had time to go to the races at hawkesbury to watch Speckle run even though she didn't win it was still good. It just wasn't run her way so she didn't want to have any part of it lol but yea it was good then i went a feed all the ponies and went home and relaxed for a change lol. I went out to dinner with the family the night before cause it was dad's birthday and plus my bro visits us on a wednesday night hehe he's got a girlfriend now lol its so cute we still haven't met her yet but will soon hehe she sounds really nice so yea lol i still find it funny but yea... moving on hehe. umm not much else is news really at least not that i can think of so yea miss u all muchly Special Howdy to my Crazy American Girl Kendra!!!! Thx for the email i will write back as soon as i can! God bless catch up with you all xoon! take care

oh yea lol thats my other bit of new i got my green p's yay! lol not very big news but still i was excited i can go 100 kilometres legally now lol! bonus! hehe

haha take care ttyl!
I wanna get your words stuck in my head
I wanna touch your soul with mine
I want to always be, be by you led
Always

I wanna know that you hung the stars in the sky
So on lonely nights I would know your presence
I wanna feel your love under my skin, down through my bones

Your love endures forever
Your love changes me
Your love makes me whole, makes me better
Your love endures

I wanna feel the wind and know that you're near me
And see in the seasons your mystery
I wanna feel your love flow through my veins, pound in my heart

Your love endures forever
Your love changes me
Your love makes me whole, makes me better

I want to k know how this COULD be
Yet your love remains a mystery
That's woven all the way
That's woven all the way
That's woven all the way through me

Your love endures forever
Your love changes me
Your love makes me whole, makes me better

Your love endures (Brooke Fraser)

#so let me get this straight
say now you loved me all along?
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel?
i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago see I felt the same way
now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
insignificantly enough we both have significant others

only time will tell
time will turn and tell

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

But thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
but i must confess you're so much more then i remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

my day late friend

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were no where to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love she's still renowned

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when#

Howdy!! Life is very funkadelic at the moment, loving work, loving my horses, loving my Lord!!! An missin' my friends!!! Sorry everyone I haven't been real good at keeping contact lately, work and training has kept me flat out I do think of you all constantly and pray everything is well and falling into place for you! Hope you're all enjoying exploring this great big world we're moving into I know I am it is awesome!! and remember everywhere you go be an example of Christ and don't be afraid to let you light shine it is what makes us who we are! As in a gorgeous song by Sara Groves called You are the Son we are the moon and God is the sun we were made to shine all we have to do is turn our faces to God and He will make us shine!
God bless! Miss you all luv u muchly!!!

*I close my eyes,
And even when I'm sleeping
I'm alright,
'Cause You are in my life.

Once upon a time,
I only imagined this
And now You're mine.
Wished for you so hard.
Prayed that You'd find me;
Baby you're here today,
Here to remind me:

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe, oh oh...

Everybody said
That I was a fool to think
That we could bear; (Everybody said that...)
But I couldn't get my heart out of my head,
And they just didn't see;
No, they just couldnt of

The feeling that You get,
The places that You go...
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe.

Never wished for material things;
Never needed wind in my wings.
I never wished for anything but You...oh!
I can't explain it,
Someone just told me,
'Go where your heart is,
You'll never be lonely.'

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That (when you believe) when You want Someone enough,
Then they can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be,
If you believe.*